Eternal torment: The Search

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Let's see...i've been down with the flu AND the continual assessments are damn near. Tues actually. Still, in a surprising twist of fate, for the subject I disliked, soil science (cos it's effin geog), i got better marks than for plant nutrition (which involves chem). So Argh-inducing.

Anyways, lately been feel my creative juices ebbing and flowing. Kind of like the occasional breeze. Just finished my FIRST poem in a effin long time. I've yet to even type it out so yeah. Not to mention I need to polish it. Still, I feel so darn accomplished after I wrote it.

Went to watch X-Men 3. Sure, the movie was kind of what I expected (read: too much wham-bhams, too short, too much wolverine centred), I was rather surprised that it presented a philosophical question. A question that touched on eugenics. (do not read further if you do not want spoilers)

The X-gene can represent anything, from race, skin colour, sex, religion, sexuality etc. But sexuality was kind of what hit me first. I mean researchers have raised the possibilities of isolating the supposed gay gene since the 1990s, technically for as long as I have read the papers, which isn't very long since i started only in k1 or 2 and am only 17.

I believe that sexuality is a wide spectrum. That we are who we are from the start. That's why i think it's BS when I read about "reformed" gays etc. They are just suppressing a part of who they are in order to conform. No matter how wrong I think it is, I can understand why some people choose to do so. You would too if you were raised knowing that what you are is wrong. and having to face ridicule, shame, rejection, ostracization ( i know it isn't a word, but i think it SHOULD be a word) etc for choosing to be who you are.

So there I was, contemplating whether or not I would have joined the protest or the queue for the cure. A part of me would readily join the protest as I believe strongly in being who I am. TO FUCK with what people think, it's accepting who you are that matters. However, having been in similar shoes, I've understood why some people would want a cure. I mean who wouldn't want to be "normal"? To not suffer because of difference? However, as I watched, I remembered a quote I saw on the Net a long long time ago. Normality does not exist. How true. How normal is normal? Isn't normalcy just a school of thought? Just because the majority of people are say, left-handed, does that mean being left-handed is normal? That can't be so right?

Anyways,back to the movie and away from the heavy questioning which is really making me dizzy because of the long period of time, towards the end, there appears to be hope. That the "cure" is only a suppressant, NOT really a cure. (IMHO, a cure is when something is permanently eliminated, kind of like the flu. you don't have a perpetual flu rite?) I was applauding silently when Magneto moved the chess bit slightly.

So yes, before you label this summer flick a waste of good money since it's so damn AU, i suggest everyone watch it and think deeper about the issues. Thank you.

Btw, yanghan flying off today, 4/6/06. send your msgs to dean asap!

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